On the Move

Los Angeles
Amelia is finally sold on the move to Los Angeles. She still talks about missing her friends but whenever she complains about the cold I remind her it’s not cold in California. Today it’s -12 degrees so I think the perks of the move are finally sinking in.

new york city
I on the other hand am still having mixed feelings. It was my dream to live in New York. I worked so hard to get here and it’s been hard for me to admit that New York is not the artsy place I dreamed it would be when I was living in Kansas.

When I went home for Christmas, as our plane flew over New York the skyline just looked like a bed of nails that I had been trying to make comfortable for 14 years. When I first moved to New York I used to look at the buildings and feel hopeful and inspired, now I just cry. So, it’s time to move.

I could go on and on explaining the reasons for the move. It’s one of the most rational and logical decisions I have made in a while. But no matter how much I try to reason or explain the move to my heart I just get sad and wish it was different.

I wonder how long it will take for my heart to catch up with my mind? Part of me feels that once I move to Los Angeles and see how much fun our life is there I will feel much better.

I also wonder if maybe I am not really grieving the move but instead grieving the death of New York as an art and culture hub?

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4 Responses to “On the Move”

  1. hobee1971 February 25, 2015 at 11:24 AM #

    The death of a dream is the hardest death to cope with. Keep your head up! You can write in LA… ON THE BEACH!

    • Shannon February 27, 2015 at 6:46 AM #

      True… writing on the beach is a good dream.

  2. star71 February 25, 2015 at 10:15 PM #

    I agree with Melissa…
    You’re going to LOVE living in the warmth…
    Plus you’re going to be close to your friends…
    And your dream of opening the Comedy Club w FINALLY be happening too…
    And YOU can write from anywhere…
    Amelia can make new friends … Which she will b/c she’s outgoing and Freckles will LOVE being able to go for long walks ALL year round…

    But… The great things about dreams… You can have more than one…
    Maybe you’ll discover a new one, one that was buried away… OR come up with something new…

    • Francesca February 26, 2015 at 4:30 AM #

      Well said! <3 🙂

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