The Year I Was Silent

A year ago my life was turned upside down. I went from blogging every day, to blogging 5 days a week, to blogging sporadically. I would like to blame the lack of blog posts on time but that would be a lie.

For one, I am just plane lazy. When you write a blog post it takes energy to write it as well as the emotional energy of sharing something that is personal to you. My life is very uncertain now and I spend so much energy trying to stay calm that at the end of the day I don’t really feel like talking about it. After I put Amelia to bed, if I don’t have any work to do for the comedy club I either go to bed or watch TV.

The other reason I don’t write is because I feel like I am in the middle of a crazy time and we don’t know the end result or solution yet. My articles and blog posts written today would be more like, “Things are crazy and I have no answers on how to solve stuff. The end.”

The other reason I don’t write as much is because I can’t talk about what is going on. I mean I can but I don’t want to call my lawyer every time I write a tweet or post and ask him if it’s ok.

The worst part about this is I really miss writing and being an open book. Talking about my problems empowers me and makes them seem less scary. I am lucky in that I have a ton of great friends that are supportive but I miss sharing with my internet friends.

Hopefully, I will be able to be open again but for now I will try to find things to write about that I enjoy and have nothing to do with me.

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10 Responses to “The Year I Was Silent”

  1. Ronda August 2, 2014 at 1:45 AM #

    I have missed your posts but i also know that you and your family come first. Take care of yourself first and we all will be here for you once you can share more with us. Much love to you all!

  2. vickiannie1 August 2, 2014 at 4:28 AM #

    Uncertainty stinks. Don’t let it drive you crazy. I think any moms (or dads) following your blog will understand that. We live wanting or expecting things from our children without knowing if any of it will come to fruitation or turn out well. As a special needs mom, I get it, at least. πŸ™‚

    About not writing: I write less too. When I started, it was a process of healing and something to do with my time while Eddie was sleeping or busy or not wanting to interact. Now, after some therapy (no point in lying about that), I’m feeling better with or without writing. Eddie’s improving too, as he now communicates with us through sign language and actually wants to interact most of the time. Now, I’m busy, ha πŸ™‚

    The point is, life is always changing. There will be times when you NEED to write, times when you’d like to, times when you’d like to, but can’t etc. You’re a person, not a computer. Don’t let anyone make you feel differently.

    Best of luck with everything going on. I’ve seen a few of the pictures of Amelia– she still dresses cute and has the sweetest little facial expressions! πŸ™‚

    • Shannon August 2, 2014 at 8:14 AM #

      Thanks for the support. That’s so awesome about Eddie but year you must be tired lol!

  3. star71 August 2, 2014 at 6:36 AM #

    That must be really hard not being able to get it out…
    But just know that we’re here for you no matter what!!!
    Prayers to you and your family that ALL this mess gets straightened out soon!!!
    I know that this is The Husbands and Yours passion and for it to be put at a standstill like this is just not right…
    The person that did this is in the words of a toddler… MEANIE HEAD… LOL…
    Wishing you ALL the best and hoping it gets resolved soon!!!

    The Sophia panties TOTALLY WORKED!!!!
    Ian’s almost totally potty trained…. As far as pee pee goes!!! :0)

    • Shannon August 2, 2014 at 8:14 AM #

      Congrats on the Sophie panties!!! YEAH!!!

  4. Amelie (Amy) August 3, 2014 at 12:37 PM #

    I have really missed your posts, and I wanted to thank you for everything you shared with us, you helped me about accepting who I am as a woman and I learnt so much about parenthood, and I know it will be useful for me one day very soon.
    Take care of you and your family, and we will be there for you when you could share more with us!! Kisses for your pretty little princess!!

    • Shannon August 4, 2014 at 9:22 PM #

      Awww that means so much to me! I will try to write more. I am feeling very inspired by everyone.

      • Amelie (Amy) August 4, 2014 at 9:33 PM #

        Awww you’re welcome Shannon! It will be a pleasure to read your futures posts! You inspire me so much! πŸ˜€

      • Amelie (Amy) August 4, 2014 at 9:36 PM #

        Awww you’re welcome Shannon! It will be a pleasure to read your futures posts! You inspire me so much! πŸ˜€

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