I am happy and sad to see you go. While you brought me the most beautiful gift of my life, my daughter Amelia, you also brought me a lot of pain. I was not prepared to be a mom even though I wanted to be a mom very badly. When Amelia was born I was overwhelmed with love for her and it was hard to deal with being responsible for someone so helpless. The silver lining is I started a blog. At first it was just to write about my passion for fashion but it became something else entirely. Writing gives me a reason to wake up in the morning and be glamorous. When I am frustrated I write about it and then I get tons of responses from moms who have been through the same thing or are going through it right now. It makes me feel better to know that all over the world there are moms just like me who love their children whole heartedly but sometimes get annoyed with the day-to-day tasks of changing diapers, cutting baby nails, and all the hard work it takes to raise a child.
2011, because of this blog I will not look back at you with sadness because the first 3 months of my daughter’s life were the hardest of my life or that I was so sleep deprived I barely remember those months. Instead, I will look at you with pride because I was able to turn a lemon of a situation into lemonade.
Amelia, if you read this when you are older I want you to understand that the hard times I experienced had nothing to do with you or my love for you. I loved you even through my tears and will always love you no matter how many times you poop, pee, or, puke on me.
The Husband, thank you for standing by me even though I yelled at you for basically the first three months of our daughter’s life. A lesser man couldn’t have taken the crazyness. I love you.
Freckles, thank you for always reminding me that sleep, food, long walks, and cuddling with loved ones are the most important things in life and everything else is just noise. Your are the best dog in the world.
To my readers, thank you for supporting my blog. I wake up each morning excited to see if anyone has commented on one of my posts. I love your advice, stories, and empathy. You are all glamorous!
So 2011, I say goodbye to you with fondness and can’t wait to meet 2012!
Happy New Year’s Everyone!